Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Why did I wake up at 3:30 am?

I'd really like to know.

here it is, not even close to the crack of dawn, my alarm set for 5am, and yet I sit here, wide awake. I've walked the house, checked on the dogs and cats, leaned my head out the door to listen for anything abnormal with the outside animals and everything seems to be calm and quiet. Aside from being bitter cold again, everything seems to be fine, except that I am awake.


I tried to go back to sleep. I am exhausted. But no luck. So I gave up.

At the end of december I cut down from 3 pots of coffee a day to two cups of half caff coffee and a Coke Zero a day. The thought was that this should improve my ability to sleep, cut back on my anxiety issues, sooth my restless legs, and be easier on my stomach.

Now, granted, since then we have had some seriously stressful things happen (what a crappy time to decide to break my only addiction, lol) but honestly, everything that cutting back on the coffee was supposed to improve is worse. I sleep a lot more, but it is mostly during the day 20 minutes at a time. I can't seem to stay awake during the day, or at night... but I can't stay asleep either.

My anxiety is through the roof but that could just be because Tsu lost his job, Tiff is struggling through some issues, my dog is getting older, and I am trying to find homes for two of my three horses. Oh, not to mention all the health issues and extra tests and only having insurance until the end of april.

And my restless legs are just as restless, if not more so, as ever.


Great, it's almost time for me to HAVE to be up, and NOW I feel like I could fall back to sleep. Delightful.

We have a busy day ahead, Tsu has to go to the unemployment office, we have to hit the farm store for animal dewormer, price chest freezers, pick up some rubbermaid totes so I can organize the front room.... I'm exhausted just thinking about it.

1 comment:

  1. I wish I had a solution for you. It's a lousy feeling. I've had sleepless nights like that, but not enough that it is an issue. I did finally learn, years ago, that if I'm lying awake in bed, with my mind chewing on stuff, I might as well get up and take care of it or I would never sleep The restless leg thing drives me crazy at times - usually when I'm watching TV or a long movie. Thankfully it rarely is a problem one I go to bed.
    Anyway, my sympathies go out to you. I hope you have a productive day and rest easy tonight!