Pony's Daily Music Moment

Better day...

Despite the fact that I am in the midst of my twice annual bout of time change rage (RAAAGGGEEEE) I am having a much better day today. Already today i have medicated a sick cat, groomed the munchkin ponies, managed to clean out the entire poopcicle pile from the barn (YAY!!!) and cleaned off about half of the junk from the porch.

I was thinking, as I was mucking, about how much my hands were NOT hurting. It's amazing. Like, miraculous. No, they are not normal, no, I still can't draw by hand... but I can KNIT. KNIT!!! A few years ago I couldn't brush my own hair.

So yeah, having a much better day. Sure there is an angry undertone of frustration and depression and nasty attitude, but that is just because of this infernal idiotic time change crap. If I'm lucky the accompanying insomnia will be short lived and I can be my normal chipper self in no time... at least until we have to "fall back".

I feel like poo.

I definitely have whatever Tsu has, just not as bad (so far, thankfully). But on top of it I just generally feel horrible. For one, I am reading this book called "On Killing: The Psychological Cost of Learning to Kill in War and Society" and it is just depressing as hell. I'm thinking of the few things my friend Jer has said in passing about his time in Iraq and every page I read just makes me want to cry. I think it is an important book for me to read but man is it NOT the feel good book of the year. Seriously, I recommend this book for anyone who has a loved one who has been in combat. It might help you get a very feint shadow of understanding into what they go through emotionally, even though you can never ever really understand it unless you have been there.

I'm also bummed that our stock keeps dropping. Less than two weeks left before we can sell. Gah.

And also that the time change is tonight.

And also that after yesterday's beautiful weather it has been dark and over cast and rainy all day.

I wonder if I should take some Prozac? lol. I feel like my S.A.D. is kicking back in. Maybe I am just sick and tired. I dunno.

I had a big long thing on here about something else and decided to delete it. I need a nap. LOL. I think I will go knit something.